ALL I THOUGHT ABOUT WAS ENDING IT, I feel no hope. There is no more HOPE, only thoughts of when, where and how. I can’t stop these thoughts in my mind. My thinking is a never-ending song–a revolving door telling me to kill myself, I am no good, I am nothing, a nobody, everything and everyone would be better off if I wasn’t here. I can’t take the pain, suffering, agony, I don’t want to live anymore. Today I am going to do it. I can’t tolerate myself. I am over life, I am out of here. NOW.
The risk for suicidal behavior is complex. Research suggests that people who attempt suicide differ from others in many aspects of how they think, react to events, and make decisions. There are differences in aspects of memory, attention, planning, and emotion, for example. These differences often occur along with disorders like depression, substance use, anxiety, and psychosis. Sometimes suicidal behavior is triggered by events such as personal loss or violence.
In order to be able to detect those at risk and prevent suicide, it is crucial that we understand the role of both long-term factors—such as experiences in childhood—and more immediate factors like mental health and recent life events. Researchers are also looking at how genes can either increase risk or make someone more resilient to loss and hardships.
Many people have some of these risk factors but do not attempt suicide. Suicide is not a normal response to stress. It is, however, a sign of extreme distress, not a harmless bid for attention.
DAN PELLY Inspirational Speaker: 2 Suicide Attempts (1996) & (2010) my message to the world is “I Want to LIVE “Never Give Up! My Life Matters. Let’s Win Together.
My mission is to have real dialogue for anyone who is dealing with Suicide Ideations or has attempted and survived. I want them to not attempt again, recover & live a Wonderful Life. Also for others who are grieving a loss. I hope that hearing my experience’s and what it feels like to live with Depression & Suicide ideations they begin to understand their own silent pain & isolation. I also, support those seeing love ones, friends or colleagues that are struggling with this horrible life snatching disease, Suicide. Together, let’s Save Lives.
For Further Insight:
Suicide Prevention: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Provides help to those in suicidal crisis or emotional distress.
Available 24 hours everyday
Better off Without Me Suicide? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r5xRH_Bhw7w&index=2&list=PLx_AUwyoHgqGuMUaVqsT8i2DndfCr0VaD